x[inconsistent yesterdays]x

2006-12-19T00:26:00.000+08:00

我知道伤心不能改变什么那么让我诚实一点诚实难免有不能控制的宣泄只有关上了门不必理谁一个人坐在空的包厢里面手机让它休息一夜难,想切割切掉回忆的画面眼泪不能流过十二点生日快乐我对自己说蜡烛点了寂寞亮了生日快乐泪也融了我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切还爱你的一点恨还要时间才能平衡热恋伤痕画面重生祝我生日快乐happy birthday to me ... :)

2006-11-12T12:33:00.000+08:00

并不是真的路过而已也不是真的我会想你全部不是真的是骗自己其实还爱你爱着你我以为我早想清楚不由自主恍恍惚惚又走回头路再看一眼有过的幸福爱情好象流沙我不挣扎随它去吧我不害怕爱情好象流沙心里的牵挂不原放下 oh baby 让我这样吧爱情好象流沙我不说话等待黑暗让眼泪落下爱情好象流沙明知该躲它无法自拔 oh baby 是我太傻是一再的做一再的错不由我我一步一步一步一步慢慢走向流沙just dropping by with lyrics for 流沙 ((:till the next blogskin ..or the next drop by . (:

2006-10-05T23:24:00.001+08:00

i know i said i wont be back till the next change of blogskin ..but just thought of dropping by . ((:kboxed today with THEdarlie and THEyandao . (:been long since i last saw yandao .heh .but well .kbox always link back to certain thoughts .and for once i didnt exactly cry .well not on the outside anyways .(:ahh wells .thoughts thoughts .i'm fine thou .no worries .just droppingg byy to say hiii .

2006-10-05T23:24:00.000+08:00

2006-10-04T00:11:00.000+08:00

hello.this is an official notice that i wont be back here till further notice .gonna be moving elsewhere for the time being .am not gonna disclose the url here .so msn/tag/msg/email/whatever me if you bother enough to find out.((:but i will be back .(:yes . that's all .goodbye for now my dearest blog .the ghost of you .

2006-10-03T17:31:00.000+08:00

unknowingly ..my previous entry was the 4ooth .so this makes 4o1th .i can't exactly type properly. so i forsee alot of spelling errors and suchs in this entry .my hand hurts .but not as muchas myheart.disappointment .if only yoo called it would make everything so much better .thanks dory pig for calling .. to make sure everything was fine .thanks .somehow whoever you least expect to call or be

2006-10-02T08:57:00.000+08:00

Got up early, found something's missingmy only name.No one else sees but I got stuck,and soon forever came.Stopped pushing on for just a second, then nothing's changed.Who am I this time, where's my name?I guess it crept away.No one's calling for me at the door.And unpredictable won't bother anymore.And silently gets harder to ignore.Look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.What's done is

2006-10-01T21:32:00.000+08:00

the art of letting go ..this is when i'll disappear .- the evanescence .goodbye .

2006-10-01T19:42:00.000+08:00

sometimes i think being in denial isn't sucha bad thing after .sad thing is i can no longer do that .reality sucks . who doesn't know tht ?it sucks to know .sucks to feel .sucks to not be able to stop your bloody heart from aching .aching so bad you feel as though you're choking .emotional entanglements suck .what's the point ?i don't know .neither do alot of people .different points of view i

2006-09-30T18:01:00.000+08:00

HELLLOOOOOOOOOOO-OOOOOOOOOOOO !*ala miss swan style .lol.for those who don't know who miss swan is.PLEASE GO YOUTUBE AND WATCH !darn funny . LOL.HOKAYS .so i'm left with ONE assessment to do .RE ASSESMENT . =/hokay . i'm currently doing research for it anyways.mahaha .SHO YES !last night was a blast .minus certain stuffs .and oh ! .crowd and music sucked at phuture !BUT for the sake of 1 for 1

2006-09-28T15:32:00.000+08:00

396 .okay so the big 4oo is arriving .wow .haha .seems quite recent tht i hit 3oo .okay wait .no actually not THAT recent .but ah its recent enough .or maybe its recent but it just feels longer than that .okay you know what ?i'm blabbering nonsense .>.<我不懂你不说 ;你不说我不懂 ;我在黑暗之中 ;找不到任何线索 ..i always know too much for my own good .and yeah .can't blame anyone but myself . cause i chose to be there .

2006-09-28T12:17:00.000+08:00

okay xin dong xin tong is currently BLASTING on my stereo .and when i say blasting . i mean LITERALLY blasting .volume is currently as 28 .DONT ASK ME WHY .(:i swear i'm never gonna eat pancakes EVER in my life .ALONE at least ..but oh well the mix was alr done so yeah .couldn't just waste it so might as well dine by myself .(:the skies look a lil greyish .hopefully it rains and i can go for

2006-09-27T21:44:00.000+08:00

alright .one more assesment to go and its the hols .oh YEAH .and another extra one for me =/SIGHS .ah wells ! maybe i should just go club next friday or something ?ah but i wanna club badly on friday .HMM .ahya blog later !BYEBYE.

2006-09-25T18:10:00.000+08:00

okay . just a quickie before i settle back to my work .which i dont know HOW i'm gonna complete .GOSH .okay so .i'm up there alr .so stressed i could actually cry .baobei and dardar say i should just let it out .but somehow i think it'll lead to drastic measures .if you get my drift . (:AH YES .xin dong xin tong .为什么相爱的人; 却又为爱而纷争 ?现实的翅膀 .. 扰乱了原本幸福的气氛 .我有我的过错 ..我有我的疑惑 .藏在面对面的折磨背后 ..为什么让爱躲进乌云密布的天空

2006-09-24T19:08:00.000+08:00

oh drats .totally forgot today's the 24th .AH .sighs .nevermind .bye.

2006-09-24T18:50:00.000+08:00

i've decided .......no maybe i haven't .maybe its a spur of the moment thing which i might come to regret .maybe maybe maybe .rahrahrah .when the time comes ..when the time comes .how apt can it get ? *shakes head .nonono . such thoughts shall be banished till further notice .which i hope doesn't come too soon . (:i'm sucha contradict right now and i friggin hate it .LOATHE !

2006-09-23T11:29:00.000+08:00

390th entry .the more i think about it the more i dont see a point .pointless .like .. why ?i dont get it .pointless . and bleak .yeah . bleak .cant' take it .can't take the risk .yet i can't lose it .not right now anyways .wished my gut feeling told me more positive things .rahs i dont know .confused . lost . torn . completely lost .

2006-09-22T20:08:00.000+08:00

second entry of the day .nothing much to say .just this .extracted from cai hong tian tang .it struck me .pretty hard .heart is aching .time to stop .stop it all .it shall be gone . (:找不到方向 .. 往彩虹天堂 .. 有你说的爱 ; 在用幸福触摸忧伤 .. 两个人 ; 相守直到白发苍苍 .. 自由的飞翔 ; 在灿烂的星光 .. once again .wmswdwlzybndyjhghl .goodbye .

2006-09-22T08:50:00.000+08:00

oh ..i haven't been blogging again .haha . (:yes .wa jie is getting addictive by the minute .goodness .and so is bai se feng che .for simple reasons .梦希望没有尽头 ..我们走到这就好 .因为我不想太快走完这幸福 .. its like i can .but i can't .cause i can't seem to give myself a chance . 你一个人会比较自由 .take a risk ; take a chance ; make a change .rahh .thoughts bombarding .shall stop .bye .BUT BEFORE I DO ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERUBS

2006-09-21T12:50:00.000+08:00

I love the time and in betweenThe calm inside meIn this space where I can breatheI believe there is a distance I have wanderedTo touch upon the yearsReaching out and reaching inHolding out holding inI believeThis is heaven to no one else but meAnd I'll defend it long as I can be left here to linger in silenceIf I chose to would you try to understandOh the quiet child awaits the day when she can

2006-09-19T21:37:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling anything but at ease now .and the chaos within is almost smothering me .daylight tries to make its way in ..but yet darkness still surrounds .screeching to an alarming halt .i realised i can no longer keep up with myself .i can no longer hold it in .but i will.. still .the air is wearing thin ..and somehow i find myself choking in a way or another .screaming for air ..and the very

2006-09-17T00:41:00.000+08:00

ohhhhhh no .i'm so addicted .ahhhhh .the veronicas have good songs .((:songs that i can relate to = good songs .in my opinion at least .hahaha .oh wells .so that is finally settled .like .once and for all .years of emotional baggage just poofed into nothing-ness .into the heavy downpour .into the ..uh .i don't know what .haha .nevermind .*mutters to self .OH WELLS .i'm just glad .and HOPEFULLY .i

2006-09-16T13:28:00.000+08:00

2006-09-16T12:31:00.000+08:00

like OWW !cos my right shoulder's aching .prolly cos i applied too much pressure on it while i was sleeping .or perhaps i just twisted it in a weird angle. LOL .but AHH .hmm .so full now .*blabbers .RANDOM ENTRY TODAY !because there isn't much for me to blog about really .ohoh .addicted ..some sort .to cai hong yan lei . ((:ah guilt trips drive me crazy .regarding your choice .i have no comments

2006-09-14T23:14:00.000+08:00

and you said ..i'll always be your favourite mistake .no i didn't need to know that .i didn't .feel like a huge blender right now .emotions all jumbled up .am not feeling too good .perhaps just a lil confused .or a li lost .perhaps just confirms my thoughts last night .perhaps . perhaps . perhaps .enough of those for the time being .before it hits me once more .i shall answer a random question

2006-09-13T23:20:00.000+08:00

after all these time ..never thought i'll be here .never thought we'll be here ..381st entry .i've gotta admit at a point or another .a part of me died somehow .and unknowingly ans unintentionally .there it went into the box like where i said i'll keep locked .hidden somewhere in a corner . somewhere so dark you can't find your way around .it isn't fair ; it isn't fair .it seriously isn't .i ....

2006-09-09T19:08:00.000+08:00

this is about the zillioneth time i've asked myself this question .so why do i even fcuking bother anyways .but seriously.when exactly does .enough is enough come into the picture ?get it ?dont ?too bad .i don't feel like explaining .neither do i see the need to .number one .i ain't no freaking complain box that can zap up all your unhappiness and release happy bubbles to improve your mood .its

2006-09-08T23:13:00.000+08:00

what a day .definitely wasn't in one of my best moods .was dress absurdly bright to contrast with my mood .haaa .but oh .all's well i guess .what goes down will one day rise up again .you can never be on a low forever can you ?the counting down starts .2 more weeks till the class goes seperate ways .well . as in .ahhh you get my drift .it sucks to know you've bonded with some and situations like

2006-09-07T11:54:00.000+08:00

look who hasn't been blogging frequently eh ? hahaha .oh wells .i found love in this song once more . ((:在相遇的城市迷失之前寻找一张似曾相识的脸握在手中的风筝断了线是因为我寂寞你才出现还是你的存在让我自怜缘分走过我身边变成答录机遥远的留言甜蜜在梦幻的一瞬间留下了真实的思念一段情就能连接两个人的天一条路就能让两个人霎那之间命运都改变只要愿意相信就能相见一滴泪就能挡住两个人的天模糊我的视线呼唤着你名字从起点回到原点两条平行线总有交汇的一天是命运在转变你才出现还是你的出现让我改变一个巧合的意外变成一场最执着的迷恋甜蜜在梦幻的一瞬间留下了真实的思念this song . ((: used to mean alot .used to play it over and over .used to

2006-09-05T18:47:00.000+08:00

rule number one .never EVER EVER EVER in any case ; scenario ; or situations ask smth ..when you ain't prepared for the answer .cos its gonna slap you right across the face .lol .okayy hmmm !lyrics time . ((:Your stare swallows meAnd I can hardly breatheI feel it's dangerous,Could be deadlySomehow I'm willing to do the things you wantTake me in your armsSpoon-feed my heart andDrip by dripI'll

2006-09-04T18:50:00.000+08:00

this song's currently playing on repeat . ((:forgot how much i used to love it really .There's another world inside of meThat you may never seeThere's secrets in this lifeThat I can't hideSomewhere in this darknessThere's a light that I can't findMaybe it's too far away...Maybe I'm just blind...Maybe I'm just blind...[chorus]So hold me when I'm hereLove me when I'm wrongHold me when I'm scaredAnd

2006-09-04T15:50:00.000+08:00

somehow or another my curiousity always gets the better of me .and somehow or another i just felt my heart sink literally .can't stop the thoughts .can't stop the thoughts .can't stop the thoughts .it's resurfacing again .the wound that i thought was healing suddenly ripped apart .and blood comes gushing out but there's nothing i can do to stop the bleeding .i could ask a million questions but

2006-08-31T22:57:00.000+08:00

And I'd give up forever to touch you Cause I know that you feel me somehow You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't want to go home right now And all I can taste is this moment And all I can breathe is your life Cause sooner or later it's over I just don't want to miss you tonight And I don't want the world to see me Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's

2006-08-30T23:41:00.000+08:00

and through all of these time that has passed ..i've lived ; loved ; smiled ; hurt ; grown ; changed .and etc etc .exact opposite of what i was .rather . who i was .its funny how so much has changed yet somehow .some just don't . regardless of what happens .eh ?i've got the urge to watch butterfly effect all over again .and yes .there's a sequel !i'm so gonna catch it .and ohh .i caught click

2006-08-28T23:19:00.000+08:00

something struck me whilst i was thumbing through pages of nicholas spark's at first sight .the four letter word .that many either love or hate .or perhaps .its a love hate affair after all .((:like me towards me-to-you bear .MAJOR love hate affair . hmmm .digressing bout the love hate affair .but yeah . you prolly guessed it by now .love . (:funny how sucha simple ..four letter word .could

2006-08-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

呵气在玻璃上面画心型的圈 . ((:but .wmswdyhybndyjhghl .sighs .AHYA .go sleep le.BYE .

2006-08-27T22:51:00.000+08:00

Name 20 people you can think of now; don't read the questions till you've named the 20 people. At the end of this choose 5 people to do this.1. YOO . =x2. koalie .3. DARLIE !4. flingggg ~5. PTS!6. pl !7. geraldd ~ 8. girlfriend. (:9. wei .10. BABYYY !11. BECCA TIRAMISU ! lols . =X12. preciouss ? though i know she wont see this . haha.13. ANNA DARLINGS . =D14. CAMM ! WOMAN ! lol .15. dory pig .16.

2006-08-26T08:59:00.000+08:00

and we wake up in the breakdown to the things we never thought we could be .long day it was yesterday .long and bad .utterly detest waiting for messages .and wondering if the other person is alright .for 3 hours . or more .hahaha .fear is eating me up .major .thanks dardarling and fling for being there . *hugs .thanks dory pig for wanting to accompany me thought eventually you didnt. =Pon a

2006-08-23T09:40:00.000+08:00

first and foremost ..pardon this entry .((:here it goes .hope .is it really that essential ?i mean .when you hope .you end up getting hurt .more often than not .no ?you hope . pray . dream . wish .and yet at the end of the day the higher your hope .the more hurt and disappointed you end up .so isn't it pretty logical to just not hope ?but then again what's a life is there's no hope ?this is sucha

2006-08-23T04:46:00.000+08:00

silence of the wee morning ..its bugging me and tugging at my thoughts .and then this song comes on .and now everything's just falling down .Please come now I think I'm fallingI'm holding to all I think is safeIt seems I found the road to nowhereAnd I'm trying to escapeI yelled back when I heard thunderBut I'm down to one last breathAnd with it let me sayLet me sayHold me nowI'm six feet from the

2006-08-21T22:53:00.000+08:00

AH HELLO HELLO .i shall go for my nap shortly after this entry . ((:shall blog bout photoshoot at esplanade. ((:oh it was yesterday by the wayy .you know .i realised its been like.long.since i really went down and have a look see at that oh so familiar place alone .as in really walk walk .and not just sit somewhere .and well i found a nice spot .and made a lil mark there . =xand hmm .did what i

2006-08-20T23:43:00.000+08:00

read something that kinda ..pricked . ouch .the fragility of life .never really does hit you .till you really experienced it first hand really .and even if you do .circumstances differ .and if you were to ask me .when it comes for the day ..for me to go.would i rather be remembered ?or forgotten ?i guess .if it hurts to remember me .then forget .if it doesnt make a diff .den it doesnt . ((:and if

2006-08-20T21:31:00.000+08:00

HELLO .so freaking pissed off .UNBELIEVABLE MUM I HAVE REALLY .I DUNNO .SCREWED .SO I FEEL FUCKING COLD .and well.ppl are treating me cold too .so fuck it.BYE.

2006-08-20T00:19:00.000+08:00

wrong song at a wrong time ...leads to bad mood with terrible thoughts .HAA .((:

2006-08-19T23:56:00.000+08:00

your life plays out on the shadows of the wallyou turn the light on to erase it allyou wonder what it's like to not feel worthlessso open all the blinds and turn those curtainsfrom a song called noone . ((:hahas .thought its nice so kinda felt like posting it . ((:*waves .bye.

2006-08-19T23:39:00.000+08:00

OKAY HI .did i blog yesterday !?i think so right ?in the morning .oh yes i did .hahahaha .*mutters .WELL !finally re-watched how to deal !YAYNESS .cynical indeed .but ahhhh .what's a flick without a happy ending these days ?hahahaha .and i just kept laughing when something in the movie happened .lol .cause it kinda does the silent re-run thing in my mind .goooooooooooodnesssssssssss .sho yes .

2006-08-18T09:15:00.000+08:00

360th entry .angsty angsty angsty .song's getting me in a pretty rough mood .haaa .and suddenly i think i know what this is regarding .i feel it happening alr but you know what ?i don't think i'll stop it .screw you fate .freaking hate you .blahs .yupp .that's all .

2006-08-18T08:17:00.000+08:00

GOSH .i freaking hate having a sick in the pit dumb UBER bad feeling bout stuffs .though it wasn't half as bad as it was last night ..where i forced myself to sleep only to wake up an astounding 7 times throughout the night .but still .loate it .evanescence makes me feel so ..angsty .haha .lols .it just sucks to have this stinking feeling but not have a clue what its regarding .sheesh .it drives

2006-08-17T09:19:00.000+08:00

It's October againLeaves are coming downOne more year's come and goneAnd nothing's changed at allWasn't I supposed to be someoneWho can face the things that I've been running from...Let me feel, I don't care if I breakdownLet me fall, even if I hit the groundAnd if I...Cry a littleDie a littleAt least I know I lived, just a little...I've become much too good at being invincibleI'm an expert at

2006-08-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

WELL HELL .today's has been a "blast" .lol.freaking UNLUCKY day !it so feels like friday the thirteenth !.lol.((:well morning was fine .and then it wasn't .somehow .and then it just piled.gosh i'm too lazy to go into details.BUT .how many more blows do i have to deal with today !?thank goodness the day is ending SOON .*mutters .but i sense war arriving .lol.((:THANK GOD FOR MY LONG JOURNEY BACK !

2006-08-16T08:33:00.000+08:00

well.i just remembered that i kinda didn't blog yesterday ?hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm .oh well .guess most of you might ..or might not understand my previous entry .((:but well .i guess at one point or another .one needs closure from certain stuffs no ?ah wells.((:yesterday was a pretty much disconnected day .thank goodness .if not ..i prolly would have done stuffs ..or should i say .react to certain stuffs

2006-08-15T03:48:00.000+08:00

((:quick entry .nothing much else to say .((:lyrics time .男:海平面远方开始阴霾悲伤要怎么平静纯白我的脸上始终挟带一抹浅浅的无奈女:你用唇语说你要离开男:心不在男女:那难过无声慢了下来男女:汹涌潮水你听明白不是浪而是泪海男:转身离开分手说不出来女:你有话说不出来男女:海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外男女:我们的爱差异一直存在女:回不来男:风中尘埃竟累积成伤害女:等待竟累积成伤害男女:转身离开分手说不出来男女:蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白男:当初彼此不够成熟坦白女:你有我的不够成熟坦白女:不应该男女:热情不再笑容勉强不来男女:爱深埋珊瑚海男:毁坏的沙雕如何重来有裂痕的爱怎么重盖只是一切结束太快你说你无法释怀女:贝壳里隐藏什么期待男:等花儿开男女:我们也已经无心再猜女男:脸上海风咸咸的爱尝不出还有未来男:转身离开分手说不出来女:你有话说不出来男女

2006-08-14T05:30:00.000+08:00

oh .what a song .it brings back much memories of times when the song first "came out" .and just about everyone i knew related to it in more ways then one .one of the best songs ever written i must say .simple lyrics they are but oh so very true it is .((:well this is prolly gonna be one of my ..melancholic entries i guess ?ohh. emily's song !its a sweet song . ((:by bbmak .and no .that isn't the

2006-08-13T22:10:00.000+08:00

OMGOMGOMG .BOARDY YOU'RE MAKING ME MELT !ahahahaha .but thanks for giving me face and playing for me . =Pxin dong .haaa .this .song .HMMM .BUT OKAY .i'm so swoonningggggg .SORRY LA .i have a soft spot for ppl who play piano .AND THE SAX . =XI JUST CANT HELP IT LA OKAY.LIKE EVEN MY MUM IS SWOONING .LOL .=xOKAY .i should stop before i OVER SWOON . =xshall pop by again for a PROPER entry.((:

2006-08-12T23:26:00.000+08:00

OH I'M IN A GOOD MOOD !JUST DID MY NAILS . =Dlol .i declare symtoms of you a happy song ! ((:OH YESH .i'm in a good mooddd .IF ONLY I HAVE MEJI CHOC .okay den i would be TOO HYPER .no TOO HYPER ISNT GOOT !MAHAHA .wellwellwell.PTS !!!!!!!!!!!!!=DAI SI NI LE . =Dyou're sucha happy pill !hahahaha . ((:love you and your silly un-spiked messy hair .funny bracey smile and killer dimples ! =DMUACKS . =D

2006-08-12T08:39:00.000+08:00

sheesh .woke up from the same dream i had on thursday when i was taking a nap .this time its even more vivd than it was on thursday . would yoo catch me if i fall outta what i fell in ?funny i heard a crash in that dream .and the next day i had a minor booboo with a car .i wonder what it might bring along with it this time eh ?HAA .((:well yeah .woke up crying and it got me in a super stoney mood

2006-08-12T00:50:00.000+08:00

不用你多说 . .我现在通通都了 .((:

2006-08-11T22:00:00.000+08:00

my right eyelid was twitching .and i suddenly had a super strong feeling .and know what ?i was right . ((:OH I LOVE MY GUT FEELING .HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA .BEI JI QUAN SHALL BE PLAYING ONCE MORE .ON REPEAT .BYE.

2006-08-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

someone tell me why do i actually bother ?gahs .and happily its back again .sighs .and oh the conversation just keeps replaying in my mind .sighs .it was an ouch .yes .major .and no amount of trance could get that out .ahh wells .on the bright side i had my weekly dosage of CHARMED ! ((:hmmm .had a minor booboo with a cute lil orange nissan march .and oh the driver's a bung !lols .not bad looking

2006-08-10T19:48:00.000+08:00

notice that my blog entries have cut down by a whole lot ? ((:okay anyways .lack of sleep seriously drives me crazy .keerraayyyzzeee .oh the fireworks went by so quick .i barely caught a full glimpse of it .well .yesterday was a heck of a draggy day .and so's today .but i know next week when i look back on what happened this week ..its gonna seem to past so fast .always happens.always .this is

2006-08-09T15:15:00.000+08:00

bei ji quan .((:nice new song .loveee the chorus . ((:ahh wells .gonna head out today with kitty fling and becca ..fireworks . marina bay. steamboat !supposed to be a happy day today ..((: but something feels different somehow .dunno what it is but yeah.stinking sinking feeling in my heart .ahhhh .i can't wait till they have this song in kbox .i'll go sing whenever i can man .hmmm .hmmmmmmm .

2006-08-08T22:17:00.000+08:00

today's been a horrendous day .absolutely horrifyingly horrendously horrid .long hours with no sleep is a receipe for disaster .or maybe this is just what the eye twitching thing was about .head went into auto gear as much as i hated it to .and there churn churn went my thoughts .sometimes i think one day i'll go insane cos of my good for nothing except thinking brains .a hell lot ran through me

2006-08-08T01:25:00.001+08:00

well ..so my day came and gone ..ink painting was relaxing yet annoying at the same time .can't draw for nuts .blerghs .and well .redid the OUTLINE of my structure like 3 times before i got it into the ..PERFECT star i wanted .sheesh .well if this goes on imma gonna explode anytime soon .so yeahh .decided to take a breather over here and blog . ((:and once again i find that familiar feeling

2006-08-08T01:25:00.000+08:00

2006-08-07T11:28:00.000+08:00

san ge zi .this song never fails to make me feel oh so choked up inside .you would think that after not hearing it for sometime ..and my mood graudually improving as days go by ..that it wouldn't but it still does .its not exactly the lyrics i guess .but the flash backs from the show .hahaha . yeshh .imma softie and yeah i do get affected by sad shows .>.

2006-08-07T01:27:00.000+08:00

OH ITS MY DAY !((:hahaha .righttt .wellll .a poem . ((:Shooting Starssky-stones escape the airrumbling,booming,humming,darting to the earth.This is the momentto make your contribution.take a picturedig downand add your name.You can bea great shooting stara meteora fireball,you can set things afirewatchsearchdiscoverhoperoot outthe heavy rockthe dark black crustat the depthdo not crumble when

2006-08-07T00:18:00.000+08:00

all I really want to do is to fall into ..the emptiness that is;the space in-between us .to break this division ..all I really want to do is to fall into ..the emptiness that is;the space in-between us ..erase it and bring us together again .((:nice songg .hahahaa .ahh wells .i'm falling in love with when i talk to you all over again ..and its currently on repeat one . ((:i miss singing to this

2006-08-06T20:22:00.000+08:00

and well .its pretty sad to say that i'm actually pretty over it .but yet somehow .it still hurts to know .no matter what ..after all these times we've spent together .and all the memories .i'm still zilch to you .nothing .invisible .and no you'll never think of me when you find you've got noone .and no you refuse to let me in .and no you won't bother unless you need to rant .and all those .love

2006-08-06T16:12:00.000+08:00

oh time and time again ..i hereby conclude that this song induces heartaches regardless of what the real situation is currently . and its cold ..and its dark ..and i don't have a clue . oh what a day what a day .didn't exactly got quality sleep .semi woke up bout 7 only to doze off after awhile once more .and migraines are such killers i wish i could just shoot my head with a shotgun .please

2006-08-06T01:21:00.000+08:00

and oh ..what a long day it has been eh ?gahs .sandgfly bites getting itchier by the minute .and i so totally forgot bout the cream i was supposed to get !*guilty look . =/nvmmm .there's always .. uh .6 hours later .ahhaha . ((:ahh wells .so today came and gone .looks like i might be able to get my 36 shots after all ?i hope i hope i hope . =|ahh wellls .didn't managed to go watch fireworks in

2006-08-05T09:04:00.000+08:00

and if you have a minute why don't we go ..talk about it somewhere only we know ?darlie says i ought to stop my enter enter enter thing .but wehhhhhhhh .its what makes my blog me though ?i mean who else is annoying enough to make they entry so super duper scrolley ?lol .and well .sleep was surprising fine ..i guess it must be the music that helped soothe me into sleep a lil bit more .nap was

2006-08-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

and so sports day came and went in the blink of an eye .somehow today just went by so quick ..i wished it could slow down somehow .but then again like i said before . .if time could be controlled by us whenever we wanna .then i guess alot of things would definitely lose its meaning wouldn't it ?and oh someone told me this .enjoy your view when you're up there .cos you wouldn't know when you'll

2006-08-04T00:49:00.000+08:00

OHMYGOSH .WTF . i just realised .that i'm currently in the same situation as my pts was not too long ago !EXACT SAME SITUATION .goodness .OHMYGOSH .i dunno .sho confusingg>.

2006-08-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

OH THIS SONG ROCKS ((:hahaha .its funny but do you actually realise .there's songs bout love loss ; love gained ;love betrayed ; falling in love .but how many are there bout ambiguous relationships ?when actually they're so common .so goodness.song writers out there please write more of such songs !HAHAHA .utterly random . derived that from a conversation on msn with a friend earlier on .lol .

2006-08-03T19:13:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO .and so i think my gut feeling is back .and pretty much i'm back to the way i was 3 years back .and suddenly wham .back to reality .its a very thin line between fantasy and reality .between what is real ..and what is meant to be just a dream .((:somwhere in between ; here is gone ; bu gou yong gan ; because of you .i've got to go buy stuff .tmr's gonna be another long day .tonight's bound

2006-08-03T13:15:00.000+08:00

HEWWOS . ((:just to digress .FAIRPRICE EGG TOFU SUCKS !goodness .okay that was utterfly random but i just hadta get it off my chest .at least i could do it for that . yes ?mmm . yes .here i go answering my own questions again .=/AH WELL .no worries .i'm fine . ((:really .i feel much better after sleeping .i guess ?hahaha . ((:well tmr's sports day .which means .SENTOSA DAY !i'm so gonna take

2006-08-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

today's been a long day .felt bittersweet .star shaped pancakes .and .that star that rolled away into the open sea ..maybe its a sign .i ..dunno .and suddenly ..bu gou yong gan seems to make alot of sense . i told myself to always remember ..197 . 196 . 3315 . 354 . 3061 .and i'll always remember .how it felt inside me . ((:imybiclyk . ((:maybe .. i dunno .its gonna be a rough night . i think i

2006-08-01T22:57:00.000+08:00

and suddenly .i've got this all choked up feeling inside of me . my right eye twitched today . hmm .i think its the song .zhong yu ming bai .goodness .songs can be such killers .like how the lyrics to this song is killing me slowly right now .and yes . being the person that i am .i will just let it . lol.hahahha ..i couldn't agree more with the lyrics .but i can't do it .*sighs .but i should

2006-08-01T21:54:00.000+08:00

She walks in beauty, like the night Of cloudless climes and starry skies; And all that's best of dark and bright Meet in her aspect and her eyes: Thus mellow'd to that tender light Which heaven to gaudy day denies. One shade more, one ray less, Had half impair'd the nameless grace Which waves in every raven tress, Or softly lightens o'er her face; Where thoughts serenely sweet express How pure,

2006-08-01T16:45:00.000+08:00

and someone once said to me ..I'll be your strength to carry on, I'll be the light guiding you along. If ever you feel you're all alone, look into the sky, you know that's where I belong. :) my dear cherubs . where did you go ?i miss your tagging .=/yi zhang xiang le hen jiu cai neng kan tou de ling wu.The essence of who you are may not be accurately communicated right now -- the external is

2006-08-01T14:55:00.000+08:00

first of august .my month's over .yet things are still the same.hahaha .i shouldn't have listened to the song i'm listening to .but heck .there must be a reason why i'm listening to it .i realised i've been saying too much over here .and i shouldn't be doing it .it shall go back to where it belongs .((:that would be the best thing right now i suppose .and ouch .*prick .hahah .nvm.its not supposed

2006-08-01T00:49:00.000+08:00

okay .i think today has just been a bad day .no ?*erase all bad things away .there . today doesn't seem that horrid now .well .today was fine after awhile.thanks CAM !ahha enjoyed talking to you . =Pand of cos .kitty fling becca shah and fiz . though i didnt exactly spend much time wit them .haha .and i think now they all know .or do they ?uh nvm.point is .okay.i'm sorry yoo .((:i just .i dunno .

2006-07-31T12:56:00.000+08:00

fuck .i'm supposed to be out alr but i'm still here .haha i guess there's much to blog about ..but i won't say it .anywhere .and somehow i wished its april fools today .but no point wishing .cause its not gonna happen .oh how good it'll be if i had the universal remote control.i'll rewind back to the time where it first started and stopped it from happening .i wished you didn't inisit .it

2006-07-31T12:14:00.000+08:00

and so it is .back at one .back to boston .back to . this .away from this .far away its gonna be . ((:i don't know how this day will turn out .maybe i'll finally be able to ...HAHA .its alright .not worth mentioning .mm .and this is the last time.that i'm ever gonna come here tonight.and i was right .to those who know .i told you so.to those who doesn't .its better that way .and to the times .it

2006-07-31T11:52:00.000+08:00

bad day .extremely bad timing .and did i say bad day already ?dontunderstandwhy.dontthinki'lleverunderstandwhy.don'twannaknowwhyeither.fucking cheesed off with myself .but what's done is done .anditoldmyselfi'llneverletthisdayhappenedbutsomehowitstilldid.so yes .here goes nothing .time for me to go .ihopeyoo'llbehappy.that'sall.yootakecareofyourself.*poof .

2006-07-31T00:20:00.000+08:00

and once again ..yi ge ren de xing guang is playing .((:but i'm fine .yes i'm fine really .i'm feeling much much better .somehow .like i said.it comes and goes .weird but yeah .it comes and goes .and i wonder when the pretend game will stop .or maybe after all it isn't exactly a pretend game at all .((:and like i said 2 entries ago .i so feel like.but i can't .=/ah well .ecp tmr with fling kitty

2006-07-30T21:46:00.000+08:00

here i am again . ((:nothing much to talk about still .i guess the pretend game shall go on till it can't no more .((:the more i listen to this song .the more i love it . ((:Augustana - Stars And Boulevards wait dear, a white horse is walking down my street here, your words are creeping at my feeti fear, sunrise will come too soon and you'll disappearinto the haze of this city and go south...look

2006-07-30T18:40:00.000+08:00

aiights .so here i am again .after a whole day . .almostof being out .alone.and i got my defenses .when it comes to your intentions for me ..and yes . can't say i sorted out my thoughts exactly .can't say i'm getting there . but 3 whole pages full of cramped words seemed to help . or does it ?hmmm .i don't know .hahaha . ((:airport's changed much .sad bout the t2 viewing mall .but well ..at

2006-07-29T22:59:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling super low now .and i fucking hate it.hate the feeling of this damn heavy heart .fuck .here is gone is still on repeat .head is churning with loads of thoughts .heart is heavy with a million stones .does that sound right ?blahs .don't know don't care .right and though i say tht .all of you who observe well enough would know that i can't do that .cos if i can den i wouldn't be the way i

2006-07-29T17:24:00.000+08:00

but its all and then its nothing to me ..i thought i lost you somewhere ..but you were never really ever there at all .and so i'm back .again .Googoo Dolls - Here is Gone .its depressing .but i'm letting it go on repeat .the rain has stopped .but the dark clouds are still hanging .suddenly something whamed right in my face .and i didn't dodge quick enough . so now here i am .i know its somewhere

2006-07-29T16:15:00.000+08:00

i think i get it .i finally get it .this entry will prolly be not so nice .so if you're not prepared . please don't read it .((:okay so here i go .this is for you.so i read your blog .and i must say .yes i'm disappointed .i thought maybe after this you'll get it .but sadly you don't .why is it always others and not you ?look.i'm not saying its only you .but come on .like i told you the other time

2006-07-29T09:49:00.000+08:00

listening to : Howie Day - Collide .FUNNY !i didn't blog yesterday .my ie was opened to the edit post page for 3 times .yet 3 times i didn't blog .ohhh well !let it be . ((:myabe in a sense i just couldn't bring myself to.alrights !so i shall blog bout our 14 hour photoshoot . =Pwas it actually 14 or more ?hahaha .whichever the case .was contemplating if i should do a photoblog but i decided not

2006-07-27T15:25:00.000+08:00

where'd you goi miss you soseems like its been foreversince you've been goneplease come back home.ayee i have pretty much nothing to sayy. and it does make sense for me to be here blogging when my own blog is dying and your blog is thriving like. WOAH.so fine. i'll talk about something super random.being exposed to the SG blogosphere for an uber long time (LALA you so know what i mean) and being

2006-07-27T11:40:00.000+08:00

wanted to belong here ; but something felt so wrong here ..goodness .this song makes me wanna blog so bad .and yes .so here i am .breakaway.((:i've got a feeling this is gonna be another smiley infested entry .((: ((: ((: ((: ((: ((: ((:hahahahahaha .beautiful song it is really .don't you think ?hopeful yet .melancholic ?two fused into one .((:Buildings with a hundred floorsSwinging around wild

2006-07-27T10:47:00.000+08:00

ROAR .i'm pissed .TMD .*@!&#^@(%$(@^ @ .i typed so much and everything's gone .BLEAH .RAHHRAHHRAHHRAHH=xBAHAHHA .so annoying .NO MOOD ALR .shall blog again LATER . =/oh and on a lighter note .wasn't it just recently that i've hit my 300th entry ?funny cos this is the 312th .SO FAST !? lol. =Xhahaha .OGEY .i shall go now . MAIMAI !

2006-07-26T08:56:00.000+08:00

and if i don't reply you .. would you just assume you get the drift ?can't believe i'm up so early when i only managed to sleep at 4 ..4 right ? fling ? cam ?yeah should be .haha . thanks to cam and fling for being there .and of cos becca .and of cos cos darlie .darlie we've gotta meet up asap .i'm going to lose my sanity real soon .its 0854 in the morning and the first song my itunes's playing

2006-07-26T02:11:00.000+08:00

yes i'm back again .after downing 7 cups of absolut citrus + ilt i feel better .warmth of vodka in my tummy . somehow the sad songs doesn't hit me as hard .((:thanks becca for being there ! x)and they say you shouldn't ever drink when you're upset .i can see why .HAHA.i wanna get drunk.den maybe for once i can sleep without dreaming .without waking up crying so many times throughout the night .

2006-07-26T00:34:00.000+08:00

and i just feel so fucking used .imagine you have 4 chat windows .everyone trinkling within a few seconds .everyone just wanting to vent it out and head off to bed .good on you then .at least you can do that .fuck it hurts la .i might regret typing this outi might even not publish it .but it fucking hurts .nah its okay. i just need to vent it out . i'm gg to slp when i'm done.ya okay .i'm lost

2006-07-25T11:54:00.000+08:00

*BIG SMILE .HAHAHAHA ((:i'm in an uber good mood right now .and i hope i'll still be for the rest of the day .. I'VE GOT A HOT DATE TONIGHT !!!!!!! WOOHOO .i'm so happy .so excited .SO looking forward to it .hahahahaha ((: thinking about it makes me SMILE like an idiot .LOL .GAH .can't wait to see my date .can't wait can't wait .I HOPE I LOOK GOOD TODAY ! x)MAHAHAHA .that's it man .i'm gonna be

2006-07-25T10:46:00.000+08:00

listening to : Evan and Jaron - the distance .wehhh .its been long since i last heard this song .and eh ?i just blogged like how long ago and here i am again .HAHAHAHA . ((:hmmmmm.whatever whateever !yeah i just wanted to get that out . WHATEVER YOO . okay i feel better .*waves.